I have a little confession – I am someone who will very happily live in the future. For too many years I have put tasks away, left things unfinished and chaotic for “future Emma” to worry about..
Poor poor future Emma.
She has no more time than I have. In fact, her lists keep getting longer due to my lack of thought for her. I write lists for her, trying to make things clearer. But the lists get chaotic. So I divide the lists up into nice c
ategories. But the poor girl still doesn’t know where to start.. Home, business or body/mind/spirit? It’s a constant debate. She is much like me this girl.
She looks at the list. It looks too hard. No-one will make her accountable (until the last minute) so she makes a list for future future Emma.
Poor poor Future Future Emma. She really has no hope.
The fact is, that I have come to the realisation that I don’t want to live my life this way.
I’m going to look after future Emma and future future Emma.
Because in the future I want to feel looked after, nurtured, on top of things.
Not chaotic, overwhelmed and tired.
And as much as I’ve tried, that really isn’t going to happen on it’s own accord.
There has to be some hard yards.
The present needs my attention.. for my future selfs happiness too.